You Came Along.

I was but a kid
with no direction.
Who’d ever think
I’d hold ambition.

I was simple-minded
and avoided what’s obscure.
Til you came and changed
the tunes in my songs.

I’ve done things
I never knew I could.
I’ve crossed the borders
and exceeded my limitations.

Forever, I will appreciate
what you’ve taught me
things ‘bout life, reality
and life’s wondrous beauty.

I had no life’s mission
nor do I make decisions
that I’ve concluded on my own.
Not until you came along.

MR@2016

I Dare You.

Challenge me, I dare you,
Just like how you did to others.
I promise you,
I may bend or bleed but you –
can never break my soul.

Speak to me with disrespect,
As you think you’re way up high,
Your words mean nothing –
I will not succumb
I will not cry.

Step on my dignity, I dare you.
Take away all that I have.
Dig a ground so deep for me,
I will not squirm, I will not run,
I will face you head on,
and show you what I’m about!

MR @ 2016

‘rents…

How do I forget that
you were the ones I cling to?
How do I move on from
being totally away from you?
Where do I go if
things turn south for me?
Where do I stay if
there isn’t any place I’d
rather be?

How do I keep myself
from bleeding?
When memories of what
has been done in my head
keeps on replaying?
How do I mend a broken heart
when all it’s ever wanted
was your full understanding?

How do I forgive,
when you never asked?
Why do I even bother
remember what we used to have?
Things had changed,
clearly ain’t for the better.
Memories are all I have,
and I see you don’t even care.

I wish there was a way
that I could make you see…
That this is who I wanted to be
and that all I wanted
was for you to support me.
In the end, I still love you though,
A long time has passed
and I want you to know.
That even from afar
I still think of you both.
Still hoping that a day will come
that about me you’d
have changed your thoughts.

MR@2016

Facade.

Are we over?
I asked you that
once before.
You smiled
but never answered
left me wondering
if it even mattered.
I’m with you
as you’re with me –
I hope…
but I can’t ignore
the gnawing
sensation inside
like there’s something
you’re trying
to hide.
That the colors
you’re showing me
isn’t in black and white.
I’m stuck in grey matter
I know for sure
it isn’t something I like.
Are we over?
This is the last
that I’ll ask…
If what we have,
is nothing
but a fake or facade.

MR@2016

Uncertain.

I never felt this before.
This unfamiliar feeling
I so want to ignore.
This certain longing
that you – I adore.
Could there be anything
that is more gripping
yet ever so frightening,
than falling for a friend
and later on knowing
that if this person finds out –
it would surely be the end?

Yet I might be wrong…
I might not be in love,
Maybe these feelings are strong
because she’s a friend,
one I wouldn’t wanna lose sight of.
But my heart trembles
each time she smiles
In her ways that are so humble
I’m melted deep inside.
For her, I’ll walk
thousands of miles.
Just so I could spend
more time with her
and know it’s all worth the while.

But if this is how I feel,
for just this one person…
How do I deny what’s real,
when these stirrings
within me are beyond reason…
I guess the only explanation,
is that I fallen in love!
With the only other human being
that I could never have.

MR@2016

Before You Go.

Before you go,
Just reckon
you’d want to know,
Exactly what I’d do,
the time I’d lose you.

I’d miss you so much,
I’d be hoping
for your touch.
You’d visit me in
my dreams…
though I think the pain
would be extreme.
I’d be waiting for you
still by the phone,
still hope you’re there
when I come home.
Of course it won’t
be long.
I’ll try my best
to stay strong.
Try not to cry when
someone plays our song.
I just need time
Enough for me to move on.
I may call you once
or try your number twice.
Even when you refuse to answer,
I just want to remember,
that we had days of cheer,
not just anger or despair.

I’d miss you, I do.
But we’d be miserable
If I force myself
to keep you.

MR@2016

Paradoxical She.

 

Reaching out to you is like
endeavouring to reach the stars from here on Earth.

To hold your hand is like
striving to hold air in my hands.

Caring for you is like
attempting to make myself taller than I already am.

Me making you happy is like
struggling to tickle myself but it ain’t working.

Waiting for you is like
waiting for rain in the desert.

Moving on from you is like
undertaking to defeat an ignorant man in an argument.

But tell me, why is it…
that you make falling in love with you
just so evidently easy?

MR @ 2016

Unrequited.

With longing, I look at you
looking longingly at her.
You have this glow
one I couldn’t deter.

I’ve loved you too long –
Too long too late.
As to another you belong
Guess I’m not pals with fate.

She had you in a sheer,
she never asked you to.
You wanted only her
but she doesnt want you.

You cry in my shoulder,
I feel your pain.
I want to make it better,
So your love I could gain.

I was never enough though
Least not in your eyes.
When I told you I loved you,
you left, without even a Good-bye.

MR@2016